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Rona Maynard's avatar

What is “good” or “bad” to a kid quietly yearning for safety? Dale made a safe harbor for you at a terrible time. You brought him to life. Domino too. I’d read more.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

He sure did. I got to spend some quality time with him after he got out of prison, and he had quite a lovely final chapter, tending his roses, and "going steady" as he very sweetly called it, with a very kind and lovely woman in his retirement community in Northern California. I appreciate the encouraging words, as always. It means a great deal, coming from you.

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Rona Maynard's avatar

I’m glad for him and for you.

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Jill Swenson's avatar

The galloping horse, your sister laughing, and then this twist I didn't see coming, as though the scene with the horse were merely metaphor for all that came after. Wonderful.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thanks so much, Jill!

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Ann Richardson's avatar

I just read the four comments that preceded me and they say it all. Great writing. I was there with you. And what a ride your life was during that period with your mother. I come from quieter waters.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

I much prefer quieter waters, Ann—that's our household these days. My kids love a crazy story now and again, so luckily there's a decent back catalog. Thank you so much for the kind words. It's great to have you reading along.

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Ann Richardson's avatar

My pleasure - that's a cliche, but it's true. Quiet waters are a good place to be,

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Carol C Reiman's avatar

What a powerful writer (How apt that I initially wrote "rider" by mistake.). Just enough context, details, to bring us along on the wild beach ride, catching the wind in our hair, the sound and smell of sea foam and fear, along with the excitement and confusion, capturing so much of life.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Oh, thank you, Carol! I've been on horses since, but mostly very boring (and far saner!) trail rides. I've stopped telling anyone I'm an expert, too, which has helped. Thanks so much for the lovely comment. I really appreciate it.

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Elizabeth Woodman's avatar

God this was such a good piece of writing on so many levels. Thoroughly enjoyed it. Thank you.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

That's so kind of you. Thanks, Elizabeth!

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Barbara Quijada's avatar

I like this essay very much. Thank you.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you so much, Barbara. I appreciate you.

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Francis F's avatar

Wow, this is fantastic writing and a heartbreaking story. I love the bond you and your sister have.

I had a similar experience of riding a horse on a beach and swimming in the sea in Australia, petrifying!

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

How lovely to say, thank you, Francis. Amazing that you had a similar experience. The only thing I found more nervy than swimming in the sea there was watching my kids swim. Petrifying, indeed!

I appreciate your reading and sharing, and leaving such a lovely comment.

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Mc Shep's avatar

Once again I completely relate to this story of “ I can’t believe I survived or Mom what the hell were you thinking?” . I hung on every word. Thank you.

Oh, and as an adult I found myself galloping down a beach in Mexico with a trauma kit under my arm going to help with a head injury on the beach. I thought “who will treat my head injury?”

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Always glad to hear from you, Michael—especially knowing how much you can relate. I'm so glad this one landed.

I hope you write about the Mexico rescue on horseback. I do quite often think, driving to the station or to a scene, maybe take it easy... you don't want to become another patient.

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Ally Hamilton's avatar

I loved this ride, Rob. Some of it was heartbreaking and some of it was freeing and beautiful. Just like life.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, Ally. That's so lovely to hear.

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Matt Cyr's avatar

Wow! What a great read! That’s wild about Dale. Sorry that happened to you. I keep picturing the dad in Say Anything, Jim Court. I hadn’t realized you grew up in LA. Westworld could eat up some quarters. Cool pic you included too. As always, thanks for sharing.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Yes—Westworld could eat quarters... or, for a while, tokens! I remember at one point people having birthday parties there and we'd all get a bunch of tokens and try not to run through them in ten minutes flat. It might be hard to imagine now, but Westwood in general was pretty fun for teens back in the 80's.

Anyway, so glad you enjoyed this one. I hadn't thought of Say Anything in that context, though it's always been a favorite. Maybe it was so close to home, I ignored the connection. And coincidentally, I was obsessed with kickboxing for many years, too. (Sport of the future.)

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Matt Cyr's avatar

My man, Lloyd Tourtelot, guys like us never want to buy, sell or process anything as a career. A token quarry like Westworld was where we did our best work, before work became work. Speaking of which, I’m working on a post set against the very sport of the future. Hoping to get it out this month. Good to know my Dennis Alexio reference won’t go completely unappreciated.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Can't wait to read it!

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Andy Carter's avatar

Fantastic, Rob! First time I’ve read this one. You really have lived a life and write about it so well.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, my friend. I'm so glad you enjoyed this one. I really appreciate the kind words, and your sharing it!

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Karen Rand Anderson's avatar

"This is the thing about going through things: it feels less lonely as you start to recognize it everywhere. Seeing what everyone endures, labels become meaningless: good, bad, victim, villain, beginner, expert. Each of us is both all and none of those things."

So well said. I loved reading this, and going on your wild ride with you. I myself had a stable, heartfelt upbringing, but still managed to find myself in hot water more than once. I'm amazed that I managed to get out fairly unscathed. That said, you certainly have a lot of fodder for your great writing, Rob!

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, Karen—so glad you enjoyed this one. It's great to hear from you, and I really appreciate your sharing the piece as well.

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Wendy Varley's avatar

I remember this! So good on nuance and how angel and villain can be two sides of the same person.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, my friend. I always appreciate your kind and thoughtful words.

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Degna Horton's avatar

Brilliant writing, as always. Your story continues to be beauty out of ashes. I once had a Domino ride too. He only understood Spanish and I was 12 weeks pregnant (not a brilliant move on my part) and too terrified to remember any of the five years of Spanish I had studied. The open beach called out his name and I called on God for help. Incidentally, I said I was a novice rider. Perhaps it was poorly translated. LOL. Great work, Rob.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Oh no! It's not as easy as it looks in the movies, is it? I'm glad to know that maybe if I hadn't pretended to be an expert, maybe the same thing would've happened. I'm even happier you ended up okay!

So happy to have you reading along, and thank you for the lovely comment. Beauty from the ashes—I love the way you put that.

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Elizabeth Pizzinato's avatar

Your writing is so so good Rob. Thank you for sharing it here.

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you so much, Elizabeth. I'm humbled by your kind words, and thankful you shared the piece. I appreciate you.

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Ann Smithwick's avatar

Another HIT out of the park, Rob! I aspire to write as well as you someday. That your writing can pack such a punch, take your reader to so many different places and levels, concisely, precisely and with the conviction to totally, completely touch our open hearts 💕...

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Rob Tourtelot's avatar

What a lovely thing to say. This has made my day, thank you, Ann!

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