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Matthew Sharpe's avatar

I feel this one. Even my very successful artist friends report feeling anxiety, shame, nausea, etc. when launching their work into the world....

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, Matt. I've so often heard the same thing.

Alex Michael's avatar

Haha, man, I most certainly could not have said it better than:

"We pretzel up on the floor, we wonder what we’ve done, and then we find out from other writers that this, over and over again, is pretty much the gig."

Great reflection, and major congrats on the first of many paid subscribers.

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thanks man, I really appreciate it!

Rick Lewis's avatar

This feels 100% accurate to me. A commitment to being a contribution in the world=permanent vulnerability hangover.

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

For sure. That's a great way of putting it. I appreciate the thoughtful comment, as always.

Katie Velvet's avatar

Exactly what I needed to hear today, thanks for sharing Rob, I think you’re awesome & a great writer!

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thank you, Caitlin—so good to see you here!

Jeremy's avatar

Brilliant man. Felt this one in my heart: "Every time I hit publish on Substack, I immediately want to take it back." Somehow I think that's exactly our indicator that we've said something worth saying.

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thanks, Jeremy—I love thinking of it that way. Glad this one landed (as, of course, I had my doubts!)

Mikaela Blackler's avatar

Whenever I watch a singer/band, especially in a bar where no one may even be listening, I always think how brave they are. To me, that’s 100x more intense than writing, where at least you don’t have to physically see people not reading or watch their faces as they do. Pass on props to your daughter.

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

This is so true. I'll pass along props, for sure. Thanks so much for reading, and commenting. I really appreciate it, Mikaela!

Emily Brooke Felt's avatar

Congrats Rob! And the story about your daughter is so poignant. She’s lucky to have a dad like you to guide her. And none of us truly ever escape that feeling of vulnerability I think.

Rob Tourtelot's avatar

Thanks so much, Emily. I agree—when we don't feel vulnerable at all, we're probably holding something back. I appreciate your being here!

Jenn Morrill's avatar

What a beautiful moment to share with your daughter. I hope it's her first of many songs and your first of many paid subscribers. Congrats to both of you for putting yourselves out there for others to find. 💛