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Your writing makes me feel like I am watching a film, the focus zeroing in on the main character, blurring what's in the distance, then switching, making vivid the background, blurring the foreground, and weaving me back and forth between the action, the backstory, the inner life of the protagonist and bringing me to rest on a simple anchoring moment that doesn't tell me what to think, just an invitation to feel the whole thing.

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Thank you, Rick. What a comment to receive.

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I relate sooo much to this! My ex-husband once came into our bedroom where I was listening to my typical melancholic music and he said, “I think you *like* being sad.” But it’s much more than that, just as you described so beautifully.

If you haven’t read “Bittersweet: How Sorrow and Longing Make Us Whole” by Susan Cain, I highly recommend it! The cover is even blue. ☺️

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Thanks so much, Jenn. I'll definitely check it out. Sounds like the perfect read.

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Rob I think this is beautiful. When I was five I used to listen to the Beatles with my Dad. My favorite song was She’s Got a Ticket to Ride, and I sang it over and over again. My dad played guitar and then he switched to banjo and so I spent the next 10 years listening to Bluegrass, for better or worse. Now he has developed dementia and rarely is able to play, but I’ll forever have Bluegrass and the Beatles in my bones. Music and people are truly among the richest, beautiful and heartbreaking elements of life.

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Lovely memories, Emily. I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I’ve gone through two parents with dementia, and it’s unbelievably hard. I agree, music and people, music and people 💙

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This is so beautiful and honest and tender, and I just loved it all the way through, Rob.

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Thanks so much, Ally. I appreciate your being here. 💙

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Sad songs make it possible for me to let my own sadness in. I am grateful for the comfort they offer. This is a beautiful and elegantly crafted piece.

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Thanks so much, Rona—that’s so kind of you. Glad to see you here. 💙

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Oh my heart. What a gorgeous piece of writing. The joy, the sadness, the way they are all tangled up. As a human with Damien Rice and Leonard Cohen as two of my top played artists, I resonate so much with this. (And also I almost always paint in blue).

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I've seen your paintings—they're absolutely magic. I so appreciate this comment, and the share. Made my weekend. And YES to Damien Rice and Leonard Cohen.

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I…I had a couple of tears rolling down my cheeks. Thank you for the music (the best!) and making me feel happy-sad.

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Oh, thank you, Brigitte. So happy that you gave this one a read. What a lovely comment.

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I really enjoyed reading this Rob. Thanks for sharing.

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Thanks so much, Mark. So happy that you enjoyed this one. Good to have you here.

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Wonderful read, Rob (also, great taste in music!)

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Thank you, Andy! I really appreciate your reading and commenting. I'm glad to know about your obviously excellent taste in music. My daughter and I are both thrilled that The Cure's coming back out on tour, and there are always rumors about Radiohead. Let's hope. 🤞

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You’re most welcome, Rob. Honestly, it’s such a fantastic piece of writing.

I’m a big fan of the new album by The Cure - pretty bleak but some great tracks. Had it on in the car with the boys yesterday.

Have you listened to The Smile? I loved Wall Of Eyes earlier this year and Cutouts has some great stuff on it. Helping to scratch the Radiohead itch for now!

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Good ol' Robert Smith sounds as good as ever on the new album, doesn't he? The only song I've heard was a bit atmospheric. I need to give it a proper listen. The Smile's growing on me. I haven't gotten into Cutouts yet—will check it out!

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Love this one. Especially your daughter reassuring you after playing the sad song. My kid likes the Cure, Joy Division etc… and Raffi. Balance!

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Thank you, Anna. Balance, always. I'm glad you're raising your son surrounded by music, too.

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Rob, so many elements of this piece to comment on. The one that stands out is what an amazing husband, father and human being you are, not to mention, writer. You help me become better in all these areas too. 🙏

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You're far too kind, James! I so appreciate your reading and always leaving such a thoughtful comment. What a wonderful note to receive.

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Spectacular as always. Had me tearing up.

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Thank you so much, Alex.

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Beautiful, Rob. And the dialogue in that first part with your wife…that was so well done.

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Thank you, Charlie. That's so kind of you. I really appreciate your reading, and taking the time to leave a comment. (And I did check the dialogue with both Emma and Evie to make sure they felt accurately represented!)

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This is wonderful, Rob! Seeing how your children's music tastes evolve over time is magical, I think. I love how yours and your daughter's tastes are overlapping and she's now creating music of her own.

Some of my fondest memories are of my daughters being in a band with a friend when they were teens. When the songs they recorded (as amateurs) come up on a random playlist, I'm transported back to that time.

Sad or wistful songs serve a purpose. Same with classical pieces – some of the most popular are those we might play at a funeral.

I played "difficult" music at times when my children were little. They didn't get it, but they grew into some of it. I wrote a couple of months ago about how I had FOMO when my daughter went to see see PJ Harvey live and I couldn't!

Ian and I sometimes have different musical tastes, but it's usually the volume I object to, rather than the song. (He likes it loud!)

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Oh, I'll have to look up the PJ Harvey piece. My daughter went to her first live show in NYC recently, Mitski. I def had a little FOMO. Highly recommend her latest album, if you don't know it.

Love that you have your daughters' band's songs in rotation. Do they still play music?

I'm with Ian, also a high-volume listener, along with my son. Milo and I pretty much only listen to hip hop and loud guitars in the car, which I love, too. One album that Emma never minds loud in the house is Duran Duran's Rio, which the kids love, too.

Thanks, as always, for the read and thoughtful comment.

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They play their instruments very rarely these days, Rob, though they had a wonderful band reunion when Alex got married in 2017, and sounded as good as ever. And they’re passing on a lot of musicality to their own children.

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I love this so much.

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Thank you, my friend.

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Love this! So beautifully and touchingly written.

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